Domestic Goddess?!?!

So the ring worms are slowly getting better, much slower than I’ like but at least they are going away. Though I have booked bubba into the doctor on Monday for just in case. Since last week I swear I have done about 3000 loads of washing! I’ve also been a good house wife (?!) and made sugarless date loaf, cauliflower & lentil curry, and will make chocolate macaroons today if LJ has an extra long  nap, here’s hoping!

The last few weeks have been a little painful with LJ, not only because of the ringworms, but at night he has been really grizzly and fussy and if hubby is holding him he crys and crys and crys and as soon as he comes to me he stops crying and generally goes to sleep. It’s made hubby feel very unloved by LJ and a little sad that LJ won’t go to him in the evenings. I do feel for both of them and at the same time, I’d like LJ to go to Joe as I don’t want to be the main source of comfort for LJ (what if I’m away or out or something?). however last night we had a little break though, LJ went to sleep being rocked by Joe, so hopefully he is feeling a little better and a little more loved!

Well I’m off to have a slice of sugarless date loaf and a cup of tea while LJ is napping......

Disgusting DIS-GUS-TING!!!

Gross! Yuckie! Ikky! Rank! Disgusting!!! So the other day my bubba LJ had little red dots on his legs which we thought were bites because my hubby had taken him for a walk in the evening and there are plenty of bugs about. Little did we know..... The little ‘bites’ have no turned ringworms!!! YUCK, DISGUSTING, GROSS!!!! Last night I had my suspicions and asked hubby, who thought I was crazy so I dismissed it and when I took LJ to the doctor this morning he confirmed my worst suspicions! I don’t even know how he got them, we have a dog, but I think she is pretty clean, though she did spend a week in the dog boarding kennels recently so who knows?!? So I feel very dirty and itchy and a little freaked out if I’m honest. Ringworms! Yuck! But he has cream and well after a little internet ‘research’ I found that it isn’t worms but rather a fungi infection. Great so now my bubba is a breeding ground for fungus! Cue more itching! I phoned hubby and told him the ‘good’ news and his response was ‘yuck, can we catch it off him?’ hopefully not, the doctor seemed to think we should have enough immunity floating round to kill off any thing that tries to fungus us. Hopefully. It’s so gross I just might need to go have another shower just incase!

Well I’m off to a) have another shower & b) get extra worming stuff for the dog......

Fraudster

sometimes I feel a little like a fraud.

I don't really feel like a mum, sometimes I feel like someone has handed me this little person and I’m supposed to take care of him and love him and try and not totally screw his life up and give him lots of issues to discuss at a later date with a shrink! Don't get me wrong, I love him and worry about him, but sometimes I just get this weird feeling that I’m really a fraud. I’m not sure if I’m old enough, responsible enough, mature enough, patient enough and just all round not enough :(

My mum says that Lachy looks at me with adoring eyes, she obviously hasn't seen him with tears and snot running down his face because he is oh-so-sad that I won't pick him up for the millionth time that day.
I’m not sure what the perfect mum is supposed to be like? I know a few mums that have fantastic 'mum' qualities that somehow didn't manifest in me, like the ability to talk all day about nothing in particular and sing nursery rhymes all day and love having their space invaded constantly. I’m not really like that. At All. It makes me a little sad, I think that somehow Lachy might be missing out. And being a mum is certainly very hard, much harder and very different to what I thought it would be like. Luckily I have a great husband who helps out a lot. Luckily! I certainly have to take my hat off to all the single mums (and dads) out there as I don't know how they do it with no support.

I was sure there was some magic ‘Mum Manual’ that installed itself into your head when the baby popped out! I think they forgot me! There’s still so much I don’t know, all those things that mum’s just know, even the washing instructions on one of my tops says to give it to mum cos she’ll know what to do! Aren’t I supposed to know now that I’m a mum!?!?!?

Anyways that is my ramblings for today. I know I say it all the time but I have been meaning to write more, and I do think of lots of things to write but somehow they stay in my head and don’t make it to here. Maybe it’s because sometimes I feel embarrassed by what I have to say (it’s even embarrassing just writing that!) but I will endeavour to try harder.
Good night